To Marc and Shaela, my cherished gift's from God

It is so unbelievable that you two are grow adults now with children of your own.Time went by o

quickly and there is no way to go back. The same will happen for you, it is so difficult to be

good Godly parents, I know because I have failed many times. I want you both to learn from my

mistakes and not repeat them in your generation with Kennedy and Kingston. I want you to know

without a doubt in your mind, that God has an awesome and wonderful plan for your lives, and no

matter what, or how awful the situation is that you are going through he will make sure it

still happens. I can't explain why I do the things I do, I can only speculate, but I can

explain how deep my love for you is for you two and how desperate I was to have you, I dreamed

about you both since I was a little girl, all I wanted was my own family that I could make life

wonderful for because mine was so unbearable. I new that there had to be a better way, so I

set out to make my own dreams and visions and constantly thought about them to get me through

the pain. I don't expect either one of you to understand because you didn't live it, I

understand that now! I am just barely understanding what Gramma Bess went through and I am in

my 50's. The reason for this blog is to communicate with you because we sometimes have

difficulty talking face to face.

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